He makes me so happy! 

CPAP

I might finally be getting somewhere with my sleep deprivation problem!  Maybe I can start feeling like an actual human being again.  Especially if I can get my neck and back fixed also.  So tired of barely dragging my ass through life.

Habits

I have a lot of them and they are all bad.

Busy

I just realized one of the reasons I like my 2nd job so much is because it keeps me so busy, I forget to dwell on how much I don't like my life.

Leaf

Time to turn over a new leaf - or so the saying goes.
Time to be that someone I'm proud of.
Time to be the person I portray.
Time to do things for me, not what I think people want from me.
Time to let go of the past, especially the past failure.  It's done, it's over, leave it in the past, but         learn from it, really learn from it.
Time to get out of the debt that is holding me down.
Time to find that energy to get stuff done, like I used to have.
Time to put me first (well after my darling daughter of course, but that goes without saying).
Time to turn over that new leaf.  Quit waiting for it to turn itself over, you have to be the catalyst.
Time to let go of the weight that is holding you down/back, and not just the physical weight.
Time to be the employee he thought he hired.
Time to be the part owner you didn't know if you could be.
Time to work on positivity, it spreads just as fast as negativity.
Time to find your joy.
Time to love yourself.  You are actually worth it.
Time to let go of the fear.
Time to turn over that leaf.

World

Why are there so many idiots in this world?  Shouldn't the stupid be weeded out by now?  There's just so many of them.

The Person I Used to Be

It's about high time I start being the person I used to be or at the least the person my memory thinks I used to be.  My work ethic used to be so strong, now I mostly screw around.  I used to be detail oriented, now I can't follow a thought to the end.  I used to get promoted without trying because I was a go getter, now I can barely muster holding my head up and keeping my eyes open most the time.  I used to check things off my list.  Now I can't even make a list, let alone check something off of it.  I think most of it is legitimately tiredness, but some is just a simple lack of motivation.  Some would possibly call this depression, but I don't feel down.  It's a vicious cycle, I'm tired so I don't have any motivation.  I don't have any motivation cause I'm so damn tired.  But mostly I just don't have that go getter attitude anymore.  I need it back cause I'm drowning in my own pool of listlessness and I hate it.  I know I'm the only one who can take the reins, steer the ship, master my destiny, grab the horns and so forth.  So why won't I?  That is a subject I should probably figure out.  Overwhelmed?  Possibly, but still I've never been a defeatist and I certainly don't want to start being one now.  Time to grab the bootstrap and pull the big girl panties on  or something like that.  I can do this.  Right after I get another cup of coffee!