The Person I Used to Be

It's about high time I start being the person I used to be or at the least the person my memory thinks I used to be.  My work ethic used to be so strong, now I mostly screw around.  I used to be detail oriented, now I can't follow a thought to the end.  I used to get promoted without trying because I was a go getter, now I can barely muster holding my head up and keeping my eyes open most the time.  I used to check things off my list.  Now I can't even make a list, let alone check something off of it.  I think most of it is legitimately tiredness, but some is just a simple lack of motivation.  Some would possibly call this depression, but I don't feel down.  It's a vicious cycle, I'm tired so I don't have any motivation.  I don't have any motivation cause I'm so damn tired.  But mostly I just don't have that go getter attitude anymore.  I need it back cause I'm drowning in my own pool of listlessness and I hate it.  I know I'm the only one who can take the reins, steer the ship, master my destiny, grab the horns and so forth.  So why won't I?  That is a subject I should probably figure out.  Overwhelmed?  Possibly, but still I've never been a defeatist and I certainly don't want to start being one now.  Time to grab the bootstrap and pull the big girl panties on  or something like that.  I can do this.  Right after I get another cup of coffee!