Job

I can't wait to quit Vault and go full time at DB.  I have 2 jobs right now, PT, but I love one and hate the other.  I don't mind the job itself at Vault, but I hate the place and the atmosphere and especially the management or more like lack of management.  Talk about a CEO that knows nothing about running a company and is taking the $$ dude for a ride!  He knows how to build a downline and run his own "direct sales line", but the company as a whole, NOPE!  I'm shooting for Thanksgiving to be my last days.  I will really have something to be thankful for if it works out that way.  Wish me luck.

Here we go again.

I'm back at it again.  I'm doing this program/contest to lose weight.  I need to drop an additional 30 to 35 lbs.  I think I can drop at least another 25, which is close enough.  But I really want to kick ass and I mean kick ass, not just to drop the weight, but to win.  I will win a year membership at the rec center I go to and that will be great!  But kicking everyone's ass at the weigh in will be the ultimate win.  There are some arrogant people in the contest, not sure what brings that out in people when they are losing weight, but it does.  So now you're thinking, ya what about you, aren't you being arrogant.  No, I'm not, I just want to win, but I don't think I'm better than someone else just because I am dropping the lbs.  That's the difference.   There's this snideness that comes out in people.  I am actually genuinely happy for people when they drop lbs and get healthier, really I am, but when they act smug or pompous about it, then I don't like them so much.  Still happy for their weight loss, I know the struggle well, but don't care for them or that attitude.  Feels good to vent again.  Hello again This Gals Random Thoughts.  I might be back for good.

Job

I really need to get a job and get back to work.  If money weren't a problem, I would feel different, but it is, so I don't, which means I need to get back to work.

Suck

Why do I feel like I suck at so many things?  Oh ya, cause I do.  The one thing I would really like to have in my life seems to elude me day after day, month after month, year after year and I'm not sure why, why I suck so bad.  And no this is not me feeling sorry for myself, I'm just pondering the truth, that's all.

Dating

Wasn't sure I wanted to get back into the dating scene again, but I did it and I'm so glad.  Even if it doesn't work out with this awesome hunk of man that I met, I'm glad I met him and I'm giving it my all.  He is sweet, hardworking, sexy, big and I mean big no not there, although it may be also, haven't seen that yet, he's 6'8" and just big and I love it and he's a really truly great father, not just in words as so many of them are.  I think I may be in love.

Missing You

I miss you Dad, some days are harder than other days, but no matter how much time goes by, I still miss having you around, even if you were a grumpy ass.  Joe called yesterday and sounded just like you, funny how it can take you back immediately, just hearing a voice. 

Snoring

My cute little fat shiht it snoring.  She's so cute.